milestones/compliments. Milestone first. I fit comfortably in seats on public transportation! It used to be uncomfortable if I had to share the seat, but now it's not. I don't even look for the skinniest person to sit next to like I used to. And I forgot my friend told me that my face looks skinny (or skinnier, I forget what she said exactly). So Kudos to me! :)
Also, I was wrong about maintaining. I LOST A POUND LAST WEEK!! I don't know if I mentioned that I'd bought a scale, but I did. I weigh myself at least once a week (ok, ok, sometimes I do it daily, what can I say? I'm obsessed.) and document it in my food journal, just as if I were weighing in at WW. I'm at 188. I was at 189 last week. So maybe I'm getting it together. What I DO know is that I was at 186 and I'd like to get out of the 180's. Maybe I should start making small goals. I'm trying not to focus so much on losing weight, but making changes in my habits that I can actually stick to. So I guess with all the experimenting and whatnot I haven't been as focused on the weight coming off. But clearly if I'm on the scale every day I MUST be concerned. Dunno what to say about that. What I know is that I don't want to be all strict and everything with my food intake. I'm not dieting, so why should I? But I'm still out of habit and eating too many calories. I'm doing OK so far this week. I think the problem is the lack of exercise. But when am I going to fit it in? I wake up at 5am already and am out the the door by 6am. I don't get back home until almost 8pm, then I relax and get ready to do it all again the next day. I barely have time to eat dinner (or cook it since I haven't been cooking all my meals on sundays) let alone exercise. And I have videos at home from the library! I make sure I keep some on hand. But I am doing HORRIBLE at adding activity to my days. I must get better. Even the Curves circuit training is only 30mins three days a week. I should be able to manage that, right? Hmph, I guess I'm lazy. But I'll get it together. Really, when you think about it, what's the rush? If I maintain or lose a little here an there during the winter, and then start back up strong when the weather breaks, so what? Why am I so focused on the goal DATE? I want to be healthy, and I guess I want to do it as fast as possible so that I can maintain my good health. I dunno, I guess I'm rambling.
That's all for today. I'm tired and ready to be at home. While I'll be glad when I no longer have to catch the bus, I wonder how it will affect my activity. I'm sure I'll have less steps. *sigh* Cross that bridge when we get to it. I'm just glad that in the midst of all this turmoil I haven't eaten myself in the ground. THAT'S an accomplishment!!!